Or is it really?

'Tis the season to be jolly ~Fa la la la la ~ la la la la

Or is it really?

It's my favorite month of the year, it has always been.

From my birthday to the Holidays. Too many reasons to celebrate!

But the events are not at all cheering me up this year.

Every waking hour I drag myself to get up and start the day.

Every sleeping time, I shut my eyes, forcing my mind to stop thinking, willing my heart to stop feeling.

How do I get through this?

I'm scared. I'm getting weaker.

But I need to succumb.